Georgia O’Keeffe, Music: Pink and Blue No. 1 (1919)
validation from others feels great. this summer I’ve had a lot of reminders of how far I’ve come, how strong I am. beyond that, validation from my own self has been the best realization. even at the pinnacle of change in my life, I feel grounded. nerves are wracked, but I’m stable and optimistic. confident.
I dropped acid at a great time. lost grasp of the rules and I would change the physical setting again if I could, but I’m amazed at the control I maintained with my thoughts when they drifted towards darker places. I had paint in my fingertips. I felt within my own body, and after a life of disassociating it felt amazing to wake up and finally feel honed into myself.
the summer’s been heavy and I really have to detox my body for the next few months. beyond that, I need to start treating it as I should be. as I deserve.